I hate getting this nervous about stuff. It doesn't happen so much any more, use to happen all the time. Now it just seems to happen when I go into new situations where I don't know anyone and I most certainly will not be the norm. I don't like getting starred at but its going to be hard to avoid. At least so far all the muslims I've encountered have been very respectful and nice about it. But certain cultures like to ask a lot of questions. They aren't being rude, people are just more direct in Pakistan LOL. If someone asks me who I am marrying I dunno what I'll do....probably give them a death stare :). I don't like it when people assume I'm interested in Islam for marriage purposes, but that's for another post. I'm also afraid my neighbor will see me in full dress. I'm not embarrassed but they know my mom and well it has to be pretty odd for them even though I'm sure they've seen me in a scarf. And to get to the school I have to walk past a huge church, on a Sunday. I dunno why but I feel really weird about that. Like they are all going to look at me like I'm some traitor or like I'm parading my traitor-ness in front of them. I know thats ridiculous of course :).
I feel a little better now, writing it all down. Might need to do the Anxiety Prayer again. Wish me luck ladies, I'll write all about it when I get home.
Salaam
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I'm sure you'll have a great time! :)
ReplyDeleteyou'll be fine when you get there!
ReplyDeleteTake some deep breaths and just calm down! It will be fine.
ReplyDeleteyes I've found the Muslims I've met to be very direct and they often ask me straight out if I'm a Muslim etc. But it does not seem at all rude or aggressive, just different than my usual Britishness, and actually I've decided it's a good thing. Better that they ask their questions rather than just wonder and guess about me. I'm sure they won't ask who you are marrying. Just be prepared to be direct and straightforward about yourself. And fire some questions back at them!
I look forward to hearing about how it went.