I am irrationally terrified of driving. If there is a phobia of driving I have it. The thought of getting behind the wheel of a car after 2.5 years of not driving makes my chest hurt and hands shake with fear. I have always been convinced that my life will end in a car accident. Or worse, I will be paralyzed for life. Every time I get into a car I pray that God will let me live to my destination. I even had an angel figure and a blessed rosary in my old car in college. Pretty sure I had Buddhist prayer beads too.
The fear of driving is so overwhelming and right now I am overcome by the fact that I will have to learn to drive everywhere again. In a few short months I will have to drive. And I really don't like that idea. The Big City has allowed me to only take public transportation. No worries of injury or death. You've seen how people drive, its terrifying! Honestly, their should be better assessments for driver's licenses....and for procreation but that's another subject all together.
So how does one get over their fear of driving? By driving of course. I had gotten to the point in college where I never drove. I made my boyfriend drive all the time. I was so paranoid of everything. I had a major anxiety disorder. Now, that anxiety only surfaces in the face of driving a car. I gotta go back to the country, get behind the wheel, and drive.
I wish we still road horses everywhere....they are much easier than cars. At least a horse won't crash into another horse. Though he might throw you over a fence, but that is a story for another day.
NOTE: Artist and the Ambulance is actually a title of a song by Brandnew. I think of its video every time I get into a car. Couple, doing fine, driving in a storm, BAM. End of happiness.
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Driving can definitely be scary, especially in a huge city. Something that might help, besides practice, is just making du'a before you start the car and after you stop driving. And just plain being confident can make a huge difference.
ReplyDeleteAnne: Teehee I do make du'a before and after I get out of a car. And you are right, it helps.
ReplyDeleteoh man I was TERRIFIED of driving too. My hubs practically had to force me to drive and when we were driving 100 miles in one direction and back I had to do it. If I didn't we would end up in a ravine because he fell asleep.
ReplyDeleteThe other day I drove in to NYC (NEVER done it and am terrified of it) and i survived YAY! All by myself all because I had a nasty craving for 53rd and 6th aka crack meat. I was able to park in less than 5 moves and had no problem getting back. Once i got home I was defeated by our parking spot and had to park elsewhere go figure, i ran out of driving juice or something.
if you are interested here is my trip
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Tuttie: Man you are a brave woman. I just get on the subway to go to 53rd and 6th LOL I don't think you could pay me to drive in NYC...I won't even get in a cab!
ReplyDeleteTeehee I'll read it :)
Aw, I'm sorry it's such a struggle for you.
ReplyDeleteI LOL @ "Honestly, their should be better assessments for driver's licenses....and for procreation but that's another subject all together"
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Susanne: There should be. You should have to have a license to have children. But then a lot of cool people would not have been born so its kinda a double edged sword lol
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ReplyDeleteYou are so cute!
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