I am now calmer than I use to be. I am able to handle stress without flying off the handle or having a panic attack because I know to stop, think, and ask God for help. And that you can’t do much while you are angry at the world. Anger and frustration get you no where fast.
I feel closer to God. I haven’t felt this close to God since I had major surgery as a child. I feel more at peace with my relationship with God. I feel like it is growing and developing. My understanding of God is beginning to finally take shape. I am becoming at peace with my view of how God fits in my life.
I have only been with the women at the school for a short while but I feel like I may have found a group of people to which I can belong. I have never had that before in my entire life. Women and I don’t usually get along.
I love the Qur’an and it has answered so many questions that I could not have answered by anything else. It has also taught me to look again at the beauty of the Gospel.
Islam has allowed me to take another look at Christianity. I am able to see the beauty in Christianity now that I am on the outside. I may not believe Jesus is God, but I can appreciate the Christian religion. I am also more effectively able to appreciate the intricacies of Jewish tradition.
I am more sensitive to other faiths.
I have found a religion that sees Jesus as I see him. A great prophet sent to save humanity from itself by inspiring us with his teachings. He did suffer to save us just not in the way Christianity dictates. I’m not entirely sure about Islam’s view of the crucifixion though.
I have only begun the prayer ritual but so far I have found the seeds of the meditative serenity that I crave.
I love hijab. I feel much more feminine now than I did before. I feel more beautiful, confident, and comfortable in my body. I have learned how important it is to have respect for your self and to not sell yourself to men. Your body is for you, not for everyone else to eye.
I am able to see how important God is to one’s life. More important than a career or love or material things. If you have God, everything else seems less important.
Everything in Islam has a logical reason or purpose. If it does not, then it may not truly be a part of the religion. A religion that functions on logic amazes me and makes sense to me.
Hadiths are frustrating but they cannot be ignored. You do not need to believe in every hadith in existence to be a muslim.
I am excited about possibly being a part of an organized religion. This has never happened. It is not a chore, it is an adventure.
Being a muslim is more than following a bunch of rules, reading Arabic, and wearing hijab. Its about finding a connection with God and finding the best way to serve him. I think this is ultimately true for all three religions. However, because there are different types of people in this world, one religion may not work for all. Perhaps there are three to choose from because one religion would not work perfectly for everyone. Different people need different things. It is up to you to figure out what you need to best serve God. Its only a theory.
You must choose religion. Until you choose your religion, you cannot serve God and know God to the best of your ability.
I have more respect and see more value in my parents than I did before. Partly, because I have been faced with the possibility of loosing them. It’s also because of all the focus put on parents in Islam. It is also because even when I presented them with a concept they did not like, they still agreed to not disown me.
I feel I can do a lot of good as a muslim.
I clearly see the issues with Western society and the things that should not be acceptable. I no longer find skimpy clothing, using sex or flirting to get what you want, drinking etc to be acceptable behavior.
So what I need to figure out is this: What makes a religion right for someone? Is it how much you agree with the book, the rules, and the practices. Or is it how the religion brings you closer to God, allows you to serve God. Yes you need to believe in the core aspects (Ex: Muhammad is a prophet) but can you disagree with portions of a religion and still have it be the one for you?
I’m not sure. But I move toward the later.
Subhanallah. This is an excellent post, very well written and thought provoking. I am truly happy that you have found so much peace of mind in Islam. You express so many of the same feelings that I feel. I am so glad that I discovered Islam and am now living as a Muslim; as cliche as this sounds, I really feel like I have found my purpose in life, which is to serve ALLAH to the best of my ability and to rejoice in ALLAH's Great Mercy and Love. Insha'Allah your love for ALLAH and Islam will continue to grow, and Insha'Allah you will someday make it "official" by saying the shahadah (although it seems to me like you are already Muslim in your heart).
ReplyDeleteAssalaamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu! <3
P.S. Weird/random question: How old are you? I don't know if you've already mentioned this in any of your posts, and you certainly don't have to respond to this if you don't want to. :)
Banana Anne: :) Like I've said before sometimes I forget I'm not muslim.
ReplyDeleteI'm in my mid-twenties. Or as my mom says "marrying age" lol
Masha'Allah :)
ReplyDeleteGreat post! Are you considering converting at any point, or is that still far away?
I'm still waiting for that "revelation" so to speak. But even if I was ready, my family is not. And I have a couple of things to do before converting, like finishing the Qur'an and learning to pray. So its a way off yet. Was interesting to write all this out though, really put things into perspective.
ReplyDeleteGreat post. I think that a person needs to first identify with the core of the religion, and once they find that they do believe in the basic beliefs of the religion, I think they can find their place. You can only build on a foundation, so you need that to start. A person entering Islam because they like the concept of hijab, for example, will likely leave it with time because hijab is not the foundation of Islam.
ReplyDeleteI think a person who believes in the basic Islamic beliefs (Qur'an from God, Muhammad as last prophet), can still practice certain things as Christians do or Jewish do, as long as it doesn't contradict the spirit of Islam. They can be fulfilled in Islam in a slightly different way than other Muslims and still be Muslim... That's what I figured out for myself with some thought. :)
Candice: I like your thinking. Its insightful. I can agree, you need to believe in the basics of the beliefs. After that, you need to see where it takes you.
ReplyDeletethat was beautifully written mashaAllah. The question I was about to ask you has already been answered. I also agree with Candice that was very insightful mashAllah.
ReplyDeleteI hope you keep learning and increasing that inner peace you have achieved.
Tuttie: Thank you. I hope that your learning brings you much peace and joy as well.
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